the problem came when she was unable to bring me to a safe place, and I was unable to tell her I was very unsafe by the end of the session.

When I feel disconnected I want to cut all connection because I feel misread and alone.

This has caused a crisis period which I'm not able to understand yet, all I really know is the pain and how I act due to the pain. I am struggling a lot.

I would love her to be able to help me cope day to day. She always talks long term but I feel like screaming at her that I need help in the short term! She'd probably disagree with me though and tell me I wouldn't cope with being dictated too......which is true.

All I really want is to be safe, pity that isn't possible........