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beyond_blue · Jun 17, 2010, 10:23 AM

First, I'm sorry for the loss of your friend.

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Originally Posted by thunderbear

..... Like right now, I'm sitting here so anxious I'm sick because my husband will be home in a few minutes. He's not mean or abusive, but he makes me nervous because I never do anything right according to him. I just don't know what else to do. i try so hard to be normal and like I used to be. But I can't and it's not good enough for him.

I question whether or not I should comment since I don't know you nor you me. But, like another poster mentioned, many of your panic attacks seem to happen around your husband. You mention he isn't mean or abusive, but it does sound like he is emotionally abusive.

Making you feel ashamed of your illness, making you feel less worthy of medical attention, telling you that you can't do anything right, not being emotionally supportive is emotional abuse. It is abuse.

I know you mentioned the panic attacks started when you were younger. Growing up were you made to feel like you weren't good enough? Perhaps this is something to talk to your T about?

It sounds like you are living in a state of intense anxiety. That's a horrible way to feel. I hope you are able to find some peace.