It should be quality over quantity, especially when it comes to friends. Good friends are, as you say, hard to find. But you just have to let one come to you instead of trying to find what isn't there. I don't have much for friends, and I'm cautious when talking to others, even online, so it's definitely not easy (or fun!) to make friends, and especially keep the ones I have. So, it's not just you, love.