I am seeing a counselor about every 2-3 weeks. She doesn't see anything wrong with what I'm doing. She agrees that I do have "issues" and that my husband is emotionally abusive and VERY controlling. She said that she would begin to worry if I began to think the doll is real.
As for all this, I am seeking help, but it's not helping me deal with him. He's now stooped to issuing me an ultimatum...get rid of the doll and baby clothes/carrier or he's leaving me. He says when people laugh at me, he cannot and will not "defend" me because he has no other explanation for my behavior other than I'm crazy.
So, I'm very hesitant to touch the doll now. I'm afraid he'll walk out on me.
I wish I could just go away and that all the pain would go away. I can't take much more.