(((Elana05)))
I've heard people say that depression can be anger turned inward... and my boyfriend always tells me that I should get mad about bad things that happen rather than getting depressed. Easy for him to say! Anger can sometimes lead toward purposeful action, but when I'm struggling with my depression, I usually don't have the energy to get angry. And if I do, its at myself.
Maybe new meds would be a helpful thing... maybe it would help get the "fight" back in you.
peace,
garden gal