Pachy...you belong here as much as anyone!
I realize the questions you ask go much deeper than my simplistic response, after having read this thread, but I ,too, having had the kind of upbringing in which my questions were met with punishment (both physical and emotional), have had longlasting effects on my ability to function as a "healthy" adult.

I do find myself monitoring how I respond here, as well as how I propose and introduce topics. I'm not sure what prompted your discussion of the perceptions of "evil." For me, it is too vague and nebulous to address. Just a few days ago, for instance, I responded to someone who was characterizing a person as evil, and of whom they had been a victim. I've felt the "victim" many times, but with age and time, I've come to acknowledge my own willingness, naivete and participation in the experiences which led me to feel that way. That is a great breakthrough in my thinking...coming to terms and "owning" my own behavior, and much of which has been helped by my presence here on PC.... Ahh, well, I digress, but just want you to know you are not alone.
Patty