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That's a tough question to answer. I'm assuming you are a teenager. The teenage years tend to be fraught with drama and hormones and your world almost certainly seems to be on the verge of ending every two seconds - then perfect five minutes later. If this describes your life, perhaps everything will just become easier with age.
I happened to have been a teenager dealing with clinical depression. I was first diagnosed at 13 and slit my wrist at 14. It was not "for attention." I was deeply depressed. If this describes you, then life won't just become easier when you get older. As responsibilities mount, it will likely get more difficult.
I say this not to depress you more!!! But to try to help. When I was young, I'm 34, I always thought things would get better...next year. When I'm in high school, things will be better. When I'm in college, things will be better. After I graduate and get out on my own, things will be better. They only got worse.
The reason is that nothing magically gets better when you're dealing with an illness like depression. If you have abuse in your past - physical, sexual, emotional - or if there is domestic violence in your life or if there's substance abuse, etc. you need to know that none of that pain just goes away. You have to deal with the illness and deal with the issues in your life.
If you learn how to do this while you're a teenager, things will no doubt be much better and you'll be able to live a much happier and more fulfilling life!!
I was in therapy a lot when I was young, but it never did any good. I was too afraid to talk or open up. I thought eventually none of it would matter - eventually it would all work itself out. It did not. Now I'm in therapy with a wonderful therapist and I'm trying to learn what I should have learned as a child and teenager. Learn how to live rather than just exist. Learn how to figure out what is best for me rather than protect everything and everyone else. Learn how to feel rather than numb.Learn how to face the pain rather than run. It's hard.
What I'm trying to say is if you need help, ask for it. Ask your parents. Ask your teachers. Ask your guidance counselor. If no one takes you seriously, call a therapist and ask what they recommend you do. Of course, if your underage, you'll need to bring your parents into the picture, but the therapist might be able to help. Don't let other people tell you how you feel. Don't let other people tell you that you are okay if you're not. Fight for yourself. The work is scary and often painful, but you either do it now or later.
Since you're here, my guess is you are an intelligent, competent, resourceful person. You can do what it's going to take to make it better now and when you're older!
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