Um so yeah I did SI today, why? Because everything is going wrong.

I don't mean to complain or anything (something I do alot) but I came to this website to make friends....and whenever I attempt to make a friend I always get the cold shoulder or the silent treatment....I try to be nice and talk to people it just doesn't work though...nothing works I don't know what I've done to diserve this..maybe I tried to make friends too fast..or was just being plain annoying. That's one thing I'm good at. Anyways I did not hurt myself cause of that...that is kinda the reason though....people lately are just annoying the heck out of me (my mom) she's always yelling and hitting me for no reason telling me I'm worthless and she doesn't have any respect for me..I've learned to kinda ignore it but that just doesn't work anymore...its so hard to pretend to be happy all the time and faking a fake smile everyday when I walk into school so people don't ask what's wrong (not that they would anyway) I don't like myself there's nothing good about me half the stuff she's saying is probably true. people just don'oht understand me and my life at all and they never will because they don't know what I go through/went through I just want to have the perfect life and be grown up in the military and graduate high school....people these days just annoy me soooooooo bad now.....i usually don't get annoyed easily though...but for instance there is one person i know on fb and he goes to my school he is annoying me the eff off so bad makes me want to just get a knife and endddd it soo bad I can't take it anymore....I'm sorry to be saying this cause I know I'm ugly myself but I looked at his photos on fb and it just made me want to puke and harm myself over and over again. he bothers me so much. in real life he follows me around I told him I don't like him!!!! leave me alone!!!! he won't Its making me feel creeped out and not good and scared..aaaaagh.....he messaging me on fb right now asking how its going...please make it stop please make it stop! oh and he just made a fb yesterday...I have no clue how he got my fb cause my name is not my realname on fb it's my nickname....and he only has the same mutual friends as me no others please help me before I go crazy. He always ask to come to my house when I always tell him no no no I don't want to hang out with him I DON'T want a boyfriend!!!!!!! I would never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever go out with him ever :/ I'm not trying to be mean at all but this is the truth and I'm just trying to tell him the truth he doesn't understand!!!1 please end my life............at school everyone makes fun of me and says that i like him....barely nobody talks to him at school so i would sometimes talk to him..i dont like him at all stop stop stop. please help to me i feel so sick to the stomach and like throwing up im not good and nobody cares......im trying to fit iin with you guys on here in the chats it never works i get ignored everytime...whats wrong with me....iim complete crap. why like me im hideous i would never date him ever like i stated before. ive told him a million times that he annoys me and to stop. I'm going crazy i cant take this...to much for me to handle....please i wish i could tell somebody about all my problems but there is nobody.

Bye.