This Morning I got to work and told my manager that I quit, so now me back to square one again but I don't care about that job cause it was causeing me to much pain cause I never got to see me friends or have fun any more so I was getting even more depressed than what I was to begin with, I hated that job I was terrible long hours and little pay I think not, today though I feel really depro and I want to do nothing but curl up in my bed and drift away into the fabric of time and space and never be, but that won't happen, I'm gonna tell my Pdoc about the whole ODing thing and this might just get me sent away and if it does I will just fall to pieces but in the end i relise that I have to, for the sake of life and for the sake of my friends and family, I am a screw up in life I know that and maybe in time I will get better but for now I'm just gonna be me and be really depro until the 17th when I get a refill on my meds, the funny thing is when I took only 200mg I was still depro but when I took more I was a really happy person the next day which to me says that my dosage should be greater.