It's definitely frustrating, I cried this morning. But I think that maybe that helped me cope for the rest of the day?
It's just so sporadic... Thursday I couldn't stay at work, but today I didn't have any problems... there were the same number of people waiting to be helped (tech support, 80-100 in queue all day waiting to speak with someone). And that was just overwhelming for me on Thursday, but I was fine today, that makes it even more frustrating... because I go, "Well, I did fine today... why didn't I yesterday?!"

I understand my dad having the viewpoint, he doesn't seem to think I'm trying... but he doesn't have bipolar and I think he has better coping skills that I do.
I've really never learned coping, the only coping that I have (which my fiancé keeps watching me so I can't...) is my self injury. I never learned proper coping skills... even going to therapist for 12 years, what's up with that?

My mom reassured me that she understands, she has bipolar as well. She just has better control than I've been able to manage. That was the frustrating one, it seeming like my mom didn't understand even though she had bipolar and has dealt with it.

@ onomonapetia: DH? What does that stand for?