you are not bad, you are human, we all do things or think things that are wrong - you don't have to be perfect, when your moods are playing up things can get even worse, so give yourself a break...
hope the drugs get sorted, my head always gets a bit messed up when i go on a new med, its like my brain and the med are fighting it out to see who will win!
There are a lot of good suggestions here but remember you don't have to solve your whole life's worth of problems today. Leave the big decisions till you are feeling better and maybe they wont be so bad then.
PS a job and a house are good things - not bad - even if they are a bit constrictive at the moment....