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Originally Posted by AmadeusApple
It's definitely frustrating, I cried this morning. But I think that maybe that helped me cope for the rest of the day?
It's just so sporadic... Thursday I couldn't stay at work, but today I didn't have any problems... there were the same number of people waiting to be helped (tech support, 80-100 in queue all day waiting to speak with someone). And that was just overwhelming for me on Thursday, but I was fine today, that makes it even more frustrating... because I go, "Well, I did fine today... why didn't I yesterday?!"
I understand my dad having the viewpoint, he doesn't seem to think I'm trying... but he doesn't have bipolar and I think he has better coping skills that I do.
I've really never learned coping, the only coping that I have (which my fiancé keeps watching me so I can't...) is my self injury. I never learned proper coping skills... even going to therapist for 12 years, what's up with that?
My mom reassured me that she understands, she has bipolar as well. She just has better control than I've been able to manage. That was the frustrating one, it seeming like my mom didn't understand even though she had bipolar and has dealt with it.
@ onomonapetia: DH? What does that stand for?
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But even you say that you are frustrated with yourself.
And you mentioned coping mechanism. That is important. Sometimes we just cannot cope, but it should be only sometimes, not all the time. Pushing yourself too hard does not work, but neither does it help if you don't try hard enough. At the moment,going home few hours earlier from work seems easy... but it gives a guilt that last much worse than that.
For me, it was always easy to start spiralling down from the moment and allowed myself to give in to my momentarilly feelings.
Everybody has a right to have a "bad day" though and if you feel you honestly could not do more in the moment, don't blame yourself too much. Rather use it for the future. What was the trigger? What could I differently?
I don't know what your situation was at the moment... but from what your written it seems that you probably need to try a different approach to acquire coping mechanisms. Myself, I am really into yoga, alpha relaxation... it is possible to alter your mind through these... it does not happen over night, but there are some powerful techniques.
Do you talk with your mother about her conditions? Do you know what her coping mechanisms are?