I've been were you have been partly. I know how fustrating it is right now, but beleive me you have seen nothing yet. I've seen soooooo much, and wanted to do the same things you said, but it doesn't work that way. The best way is to keep on going. Keep posting here, Do what ever you have to to find a way to get through it. If he is annoying you then don't let him see your fb profile. That's an easy solution. If you feel like you need to confront him, then do it, but make sure your' not like supper angry at him. But most of all, if you want a friend, the I can be there for you. I've seen much, and been through much, and if it's someone you need to talk to then I can listen, and offer advice when I think of something that helps. But just keep going. Get out there in the sun, and work out, go for a walk, do something that makes you feel good. Get away from the feelings of Depression, and si. You can do it, YOu can get through this. I did, so can you. and if my signature helps then Wonderful. But just keep going, yes Faking a smile takes a lot out of you but, it is better then any other alternitave I know. It is better than telling some people how you really are. But it sounds like you need someone to help you right now. SO I will check back later today, to see if you want to talk, and then arange a time to do so. I know it's hard but, you can do it. (I have)