Trinity ~ you haven't let anyone down. As far as PC, you are here and checking in with us. I saw you offered Lilly support.
Thank you for giving us the opportunity to offer you our support. The pain hurts. There's no doubt about that. I've been sleeping practically around the clock to avoid mine! (So I end up having crazy dreams! ugh)
There are lots of people here on PC pulling for you. Hoping, wishing, willing those worst of worst feelings to leave you. Safest hugs if you need them.