I'd get angry except I KNOW it only makes me worse. Perhaps I never fully recovered from the most recent pain flare? Went back to activity before I should have? And then life rolled in... and I missed a PT this week... oh so many things! My sacroiliac is back out (no pun) it's the same "side" as the recent "way" out flare... but this time it's impinging upon the sciatic nerve also... I'm surprised I'm able to lie here typing! But I've "learned" over the years that if I can put up with as much as I can in this pain, that's good, as if I move it could become even worse???

I hate this. I won't call my T I WON'T call my T. I KNOW it's Saturday. I KNOW he's probably at the U of M football game that begins in 2 hours... I KNOW this is one of HIS personal times... anyway... he can't stop the pain, and it's not going to kill me... a mantra: this pain won't kill me (I'll just want to die to get out of it) this pain won't kill me...

sigh TENS ICE heat pain med painpatch stretch rest eat drink sigh try not to think about how desperate this chronic pain feels...