She's tried to teach me, but I can be very stubborn... what I have been trying to do is just... I guess will myself to push past it, but it hasn't been working.
I guess I should stop being so stubborn and let her teach me more about how she copes... why the therapist taught her and not me... ... heh, probably stubbornness again. As I started getting older, I became less trusting of my T. Not only that, but I became more and more convinced that I should be able to deal with everything myself.

There's a big difference from when you're 9 and you're just playing Uno and playing with the guy's Tickle-Me-Elmo and then when you're 19, it seemed.

And then we ran in to a few issues that completely broke my trust, so at this point just the thought of going to a T just seems so pointless to me.
The incident kind of led me to the opinion that all they're doing is taking my money to listen to my issues... and I mean, yeah, it's their job... but I find it frustrating to have to pay someone to listen to what's going on in my screwed up mind.