Dear Lil' ForgetmeNOT,

My Aunt and Uncle lived in Canada, I loved it there. I remember looking in the phone while there, but I can't remember if it is different than it is here. I am thinking that they maybe an info referace guilde, in the front of the book, like we have here. ours is called "211", which can give you information about services that are offered. I had a peticularly hard time once, and learned of a service that could come to me. They might have sevices there or at least should be able to point you in the right dirrection. I know the health care system there is different, and have heard things about long waiting lists, so I don't know how that might play into it. don't be discouraged.
When I was your age, I felt the same way. It wasn't until I was a young adult that I went to counceling, and learned about 'self-esteem' and that I could do things to raise and build this up in my self and that I didn't need to rely on other's (perticularly those that enjoyed dragging it down) for my own self worth. One concept I learned was that we chose to feel the way we do, and that I could chose to change how I felt and I did. (I do understand that the things that we experience can be sad or sometimes the people we experience can be sad, and they may stay that way. And it is okay to feel sad over these things, but moving out from it is a whole lot better) I grabbed on to these concepts, and others and wished I learned of them much, much sooner, I don't think I would have carried so much emotional weight, that didn't belong to me, for as long as I did.
If you are uncertain about whether you can trust and confide in the adults you mentioned, (I believe trust must be earned) think about testing this out with smaller issues, test the water's so to speak. Are you afraid, something you say may be revealed? Why not confide in them with something small and with something you don't really care if other's actually learned about it? This allows you to test out the situation and protect your self from being vulnerable at the same time. there is nothing wrong with that. It also gives you a sence of empowerment, to do the right thing for you, and that is always ok. You are important, and it is ok to let yourself be important.

lil' EQ_E