I get what you're saying about trust. I feel that after all of my years of therapy where I was taught to open up to others, that I've actually come again to a point of thinking that the therapists were wrong. For my own peace of mind and survival I think it's better for me to expect nothing from people. It's when I have expectations of people, not even unrealistic ones, just expectations that people will be loving and fair, that I end up feeling disapointed and ultimately depressed and suicidal. So, I've just had to accept that if I want to be healthy I have to keep my expectations low. That way, my disapointment will not get the best of me. Ultimately, we do have to protect ourselves as I said, if we want to be able to survive in this world.
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Originally Posted by siempre nada
Does anyone else find it really hard to make/keep friends?
I find myself alone most often because I never let people get close enough to call a me real friend or vice versa. Because I'm depressed I'm not even motivated to socialize with people because I've grown accustomed to socialization ending in pain and rejection. I know that friends are important though, and something that I need for my own personal happiness. However I am a very socially inept person and come off negatively in the presence of others. In other word people don't like me, and Iv'e darn near accepted this as fact.Sadly I've adjusted to love being alone and hate being lonely.
*With that said I must also acknowlage that I am blessed that this is one of my biggest problems and realize that many of you a true soldiers for pressing on in much more trying circumstances.
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