Hoo boy, I've always been afraid to say this aloud, but it's something I've struggled with too for sure. And the way it runs in my head sounds worse. Nervous now, but going to put it out there... "Omg, how sad is it that I have to pay someone to even listen to me?!" Not so much a frustration, but when I'm down, it's just there. Logically of course, it's silly. It's not just talking, and hopefully they can help give some insight and/or ways to deal with it things, in a way that talking to people in general seldom provides. As for the trust issue, have you always had the same T? If so, it might be a matter of finding one that you feel more comfortable with.

Stubborness causes me no end of trouble either, even seeing that getting past it would be a big help(!) (Again, not logical standing in one's own way, so I guess I suppose that'd be a good thing for me to work on(!)) Is stubborness something you've ever worked on with a T? It's good to have something concrete. (I struggled with concrete answers to being asked what I'd like to accomplish with therapy.) Huh. Just occured that even stubborness can make me feel like a fraud. You know, like _saying_ that I want to get better (not "cured" of course, but better at managing), yet standing in my own way by hardcore skepticism that anything can really help.

Thanks for helping break the ice on that one AmadeusApple. Don't feel quite so alone now. (Plus, it's always amazing how writing can help reveal things that hadn't occured before...if you hadn't written that, I'd not had that revealed. Ya just never know! Thanks again!)