i may look into that. i'm doing ok. took the night off and spent it with my fwb. i got a feeling for no reason that this is over and he just can't find the words to say it. we just didn't laugh and have the fun we usually have. maybe it was just an off night, i don't know. he wasn't into anything physical, and i just gave up and rolled over and went to sleep til it was time for me to go.
could be a blessing in disguise, could be nothing, we all have our days.
still,it bothers me. i think i am obsessive, and confused. i don't know if i'm very depressed, or relieved, or sad, or what. had to take a xanax to quiet my thoughts.
and i have to work tonight, thankfully, he is off.
i don't think it's worth it if this is a sign of things to come. god, why did i ever start this? and why am i so paranoid about it ending?