No, I'm sorry I can not relate. Maybe soon I may have the same feeling you are having but my story is a bit different... I thought I would share... Hope it's not to far off topic.

I am 41 years old... 6 days ago I was confirmed with Bipolar Disorder. I read a book about Bipolar and I felt like I was reading my Diary. I am pissed off right now. I spent 4 years in the military and 12 years with a company beating the living hell out of myself everyday. I thought everyone felt the same way I did???

WTF... Now what? I left my job last Novemer because I could not take it anymore... thinking that it was the job causing me to feel all of the things I felt... but after I quit... Nothing changed... I feel like I will never have a chance to have one happy day the rest of my life...

I don't know... this is my first post... going for counseling tomorrow... meds will probbly change later this week...

All I can say my friend is maybe it was a good thing you found out when you were 16??? I can't speak for you... I'm wondering if I would have been better off knowing my condition at an earlier age? I visited military doctors in Pearl Harbor... they thought I was trying to get out of the service and they would just send me back to the ship... I took a job and got married when I left the service... went 60k in debt (Bipolar... spending money... hmm) But mangaged to work my butt off for 5 years to pay off the debt and have some savings so I could leave my job... thinking the job was the poison in my life... Nope

Sorry.. I don't know where I'm heading with this.. Just keep your head up.. I managed to survive 16 years of torture... and I just found out why.. Not sure if this is good or bad?