I wasn't allowed to have friends as a child, so never developed the skills needed.

I have been a recluse for most of my life, it is the only way I have of keeping any hold what-so-ever on my life. I allow others to do my thinking for me when they get the chance, and I HATE THAT!!! Since I have no way to wall out the desires of others, I have to wall THEM out.

Recluse.