I have a similar sort of diagnosis/hospitalisation background, although I am fortunate to not have gone through the molestation you endured. I'm so sorryr to hear. You've come to the right place for support and understanding, as well as personal testimonies.
We are not professionals, so we cannot help with your diagnosis, but we are here for you. Are your meds helping to keep you stable?
Let your husband know exactly what you are going through, as he will be your strongest support pillar in the down times.
We all do go through down times, but just know that these are just episodes that will pass