I never used to have that problem. I used to have friends and I could make friends really easily and keep them. But then I stopped being fun. I stopped calling and e-mailing and trying to see other people and so slowly, they all kind of faded away. Left me alone to be me wierd self.

At the moment, there are only a few people I would call friends, both on the internet and in real life. My best friend met me after all the crap started. He knows and for some odd reason, still like this pathetic version of myself. I am so grateful for him! He doesn't know the half of it, but he's one person I actually feel some semblance of comfortable around.