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geez · 01:28 PM

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Originally Posted by divided self

Hi there, am placing reply here because of your quote. I am new here and even though I we will never see each other, etc., what I'm about to divulge is still very difficult, but I hope that it helps to make your situations feel better.

Thank you fighting through your reluctance and sharing this with me!

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Originally Posted by divided self

First off, I have a social phobia that can trigger schizophrenia (they're a great team, lol).

Very interesting. Could you share more about that? - perhaps in a PM if not in a public post? Reason I ask is that while anxiety runs rampant on my husbands side of the family schizophrenia runs rampant on my side of the family (mixed with depression and paranoia) (I so hope and pray my boys don't get this disease - so far thankfully my oldest only has anticipatory anxiety). I have a brother who is paranoid shizophrenic (on meds but is the 10% of the population with this disease that isn't 'normal' even on the meds), my grandmother had it and i have several cousins who have the disease as well. There was a study done on my family at a university in NY (can't remember the name of it right now). It's something we don't really talk a ton about but I am interested in talking to others who are willing to share there experiences. Perhaps i should explore online to find a support group for those who have family members with the disease? If there isn't anything like this already on PC there should be one. - since this original post I found it

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Originally Posted by divided self

Regardless of my education and that I can operate as a very effective therapist, in ANY purely socially situation I appear as a blithering idiot.

This is a safe place and great place to practice being social

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Originally Posted by divided self

So as for intimate relationships of any kind, and they have never existed. I hope that this helps you feel that your situation actually has a great deal of hope because you can connect and have others connect to you. It is possible that the choices that you make in your partner and his choices (such as counselling) is the barrier, which can be altered.
In fact, I've joined today to hopefully help me start learning how to talk to people (as opposed to work related analysis foe example).

I hope to break through these barriers. I'm working on my part and I hope he decides to something other than the diy method. I find this process very frustrating and hopeless sometimes. Many heartfelt thanks and wishing for peace.