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What about your husband? do you guys have kids together? you seem more concerned with this other man than your current husband. There have to be places in your area that can help. In my area there are Terry Riley Health Clinics that will see people for 10.00 a session.

It is normal for individuals who have affairs to go through a grieving process when the affair is over. It would seem that the excitement of your affair is waning and maybe this other man has lost interest.