On Saturday June the 5th, my cousin, Jessie, invited me down to play cornhole and ladderball. Well when I got there her boyfriend, Steve, was drunk on vodka. When I first pulled up he came up on my truck cussing and acting stupid. I ignored it because at the time, I had not met him and did'nt know that was her boyfriend. So I got out and me and my son walked up the yard and my cousin made my son get in the house with the other kids. Me, her, her little brother John and his girlfriend, Heather, sat down in there lawn chairs and they told me who he was and what had happened. Apperently Jessie and Steve got into an argument just a few minutes before and he pushed her and threatened her. Anyway, I was telling her she did'nt need that around her kids that he should leave. Well he was at the end of the driveway and called me the b word and I walked down there and said "Why did you say that you don't even know me." And I asked him if he wanted some water or something an gave him a ciggerette. Well he got up and put his finger in my chest and said "If you talk about me again, I will break both your "f ing" legs and knock you GD teeth out." I looked at him and it was'nt just the alcohol talking I have seen alot of drunks make those threats but never one with that look in his eyes. He sat back down and proceeded to tell me that he was crazy and could hurt me and Jessie and whoever else wanted some of him. i told himhe needed to keep is voice down cause of the kids. He grabbed at me so i walked off. I told my cousin she needed to get him out of there. She had her ex husband comne down and load him up and take him home. Well Saturday before last I called her to see what she was doing that night and if she wanted to hang out and have a beer and watch a movie. She said "hold on I gotta pay the lady here" (she was at McD's) and handed the phone to Steve. I asked who was this and he said Stve. Then I told him Why would I want to talk to you I dont' want to talk to you. Well that was the end of that me and my cousin chatted a little longer. And we hung up on good terms. Fast forward to that Monday. I called her to see if she was going to the fair and before I got the first 2 words out she started in on me. Accusing me of cussing out her boyfriend on the phone and calling him names (which I did not do) and told me i had to forgive him and make friends with him. Well I tried to tell her I did'nt cuss him, we were only on the phone with eachother for all of 10 seconds) but she would'nt listen, she cussed me out and hung up on me. Well she has been messeging me today saying "You are narrow minded when it comes to Steve" "I don't know what put you on a high horse" Well I told her my reasons have nothing to do with what kind of person Steve is, I just don't feel comfortable around him. And I can't help how I feel. And that he scares me. She messaged back "Well I sure hope your future is better than your past becuase we all know that you reap what you sew, and when you fall off of your high horse it's going to be a long hard fall. You ain't nothing but a judgmental selfish rude person. And I don't care if i never see you again. And you are f-ing selfish person and you will get what you deserve." All this from someone who has been my friend all my life. She was more like a sister than a cousin. And she does this to me. Now I am sitting here thinking about all my past mistakes and how what if she is right about the reaping what you sew thing. I tell you, i did'nt cuss that guy out. I'm not judging him i just don't want to put myself in an uncomfortable situation. And all she can do is cuss me and call me things
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Dx: PTSD, Panic Disorder, Obsessive Personality Disorder.
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