People will probably think this is ridiculous but to me it is something that I can't seem to get over.

I want to get into chat, but I am scared of it to the point I sometimes get teary. I don't know why I'm afraid of it, or why I hang around thinking "Ok do it now!" but I don't and then I say "Ok now!". It's like I am scared of something but I don't know what it is.

It's irrational, stupid, non-sensical, childish and a hundred other adjectives I could use to explain how it makes me feel but I can't get past it. I can't even go into chat when there is no one there, incase someone comes in. It may be related to agoraphobia but I'm not sure?

I just don't understand why I am so afraid of it; any ideas would be appreciated so that I can either try to talk myself into it or just leave it alone altogether,

Rhi