Thanks you guys for understanding.
JD I would have loved to have my mom's voice on record like that.
Rhi- That was the most beautiful thing I have heard. Yes, he would say that. It's just hard knowing, like the first reply said, he is never coming back online. We will never have our morning coffee together again. It's all just hitting me and with everything else going on, it makes it that much harder. Today after that war of words with my cousin, I thought I wish I could tell J he would know what to say to make everything better. So I talked to J's boyfriend instead and he is a dear one and suffered through it and talked to me and made me laugh.