welcome to PC lifelost!

this sounds like a REALLY tough spot to be in. to care for someone, but to know it's to the point that you need to care for yourself. that's hard under the best circumstances. under these circumstances, it's extremely hard.

i don't have much advice for you. i'm sorry this is happening. i hope it can get to the point where you can trust someone to care for her and be ok with caring for yourself. somehow, you'll have to make that ok within yourself to move on.

be safe. i wish you the best.

kd