Thank you seeker and wanttoheal... It's 10:22 right now where I am. We were supposed to look at rings today at noon (something she organized). I'm shaking and crying right now. I still think I do need to do this in person. I think it will make things easier for her. I ... I do think I need to tell a family member or something, but I'm not sure how to get the numbers without talking to her. Maybe it's unnecessary beyond giving her the crisis numbers..

I'm soo scared!! I'm not very religious but I find myself bringing up old Catholic prayers, saying Hail Marry over and over again. I think this is going to end badly and it's going to haunt me forever.