The problem with that is that he cant support himself right now. I cant make myself move out or kick him out when I know he couldnt afford it. He couldnt even afford the uhaul to move back in with his parents. I really do miss living on my own. And I see other guys be so sweet to their gfs and hear my friends tell me nice things their bf did for them and I think "man, I wish he would say/do things like that". Or on shows like Bridezillas or Say yes to the Dress they interview these couples and they all have really nice things to say about the other. If you asked me right now why Im with him still I really couldnt give you an honest answer. All the reasons we got together have gone away. Like he used to go out and talk about anything or take me out to dinner or a movie. He used to do goofy things just to make me laugh. Now whenever he does something he claims is "cute" I usually think its disgusting.

Thats another thing. I feel like he just doesnt respect me at all. I ask him constantly to stop making certain jokes (i.e. the woman jokes like get in the kitchen etc...) and he always apologizes but never stops them. Then he gets mad when I say his apologies dont mean jack to me anymore because he will say "im sorry" then do the exact same thing he apologized for the next day. Or groping me. I swear to god the guy cant hug me without touching either my boobs or my butt. No matter how uncomfortable it makes me, he always does it. Then apologizes. Then does it again 10 minutes later.

But Im so neurotic I cant figure out if its him being disrespectful or me being a prude. Because whenever I tell him to stop he tells me I need to lighten up and not be so prude. Whos the wrong one? I dont feel like Im prude but if anything ever upsets me, its never his fault, its always me overreacting.