<font color="blue">You have no idea!!!!! Yes, I post a lot but not nearly as much as I write! Especially due to the latest flare, I have the "preview post" preview PM clicked automatically.. and yes, many, many times I have deleted the whole thing and not said anything. Often I edit it severely, afraid of not being understood and not being up to explaining to those two or three members who appear to search out posts to dispute. I end up with more posts that are "just" ((((hugs)))) than I really wish. I mean, I do wish them hugs, but have more support to give.. .just can't. I've had to reduce what I say to protect myself. Paranoia strikes deep... and will probably kill me. I'm trying very hard to prevent expressing my own dilemmas, and "just" sending out some support for others. I don't feel accepted like I used to.

Thanks time0 for the thread... and I sincerely hope no one bashes anyone's comments on this thread. Sometimes we just need to air out our thoughts and explain our actions?

TO all those who are reading and won't be able, for one reason or another, to respond: (((((hugs)))))