Yeah I know. I just feel like there really isnt a way for me NOT to. Like if I cook dinner for myself and not for him........ohhhhhhh I better be ready for the backlash. But if I dont cook it I wont eat because he never cooks ever.

Like I know he wont do it but I have to because its not like I can sit around and just hope he pays the electric bill. I know he will forget about it and, if he were on his own whatever, but this way it means I would lose electricity too. That kind of stuff.

You know when you get to the point with someone and you are just so frustrated and upset that you kind of wish they would be mean just so you have a valid reason to go off? Like I almost hope he does come again mad again because I have all this pent up anger and if he is in a fine mood, then its me bringing it up out of nowhere when things were good. Does that make sense?