You don't have to make that wish. He's already mean. You already have a valid reason to end the relationship. It's not necessary to "go off," but you can channel your anger into taking care of yourself and getting that good-for-nothing piece of trash the hell out of your life. Hoping my strong language doesn't hurt your feelings. It's just that I can't emphasize enough, how important it is to get out of such a situation.

Abuse is not always something that leaves physical injuries. Never mind him taking a swing at you, which is WAY over the line. Pay close attention here: Any time he's doing something that bothers you, if you ask him to stop, and he won't, that's emotional abuse. Even without the yelling and cursing over it. Just not stopping, is abuse enough. It is a blatant sign that he has no respect for you or your feelings. Plus the fact that he won't willingly help to pay the bills or do the chores--he depends entirely on you. That's abuse too. You exist only to serve him, and he won't let you have even common courtesy in return.

Do NOT fall for any of his sweetness when you break off the relationship. It is all false, and he will only abuse you again. Been there, done that.