I never really understand any of my pdocs... Are they even real people?!! I always feel like they don't understand what I am trying to say and I still don't feel comfortable in my own skin. I don't think I have ever been properly medicated in 6 years! The best I have felt this whole time was during my pregnancy! Imagine that.

The one I see now is better than the rest have been; very thorough and all, but he seems to only prescribe me things that are the ONLY drugs that are fda approved for bipolar specific illnesses. I've been seeing on here all kinds of other meds you guys are using and I also called my insurance about alternatives (these brand meds are expensive, even with insurance!) and he basically gawked at me for asking about those at all. I have been a long time fan of that great website all about crazymeds, and other research that I have done tells me that there are other things that I could be taking (off label use, of course) and they might help me even better than what I am on now.

Anyway, I digress. My question was how do you find a pdoc that actually gets you and you feel comfortable around? One that you are actually convinced is not from some far away galaxy(they are so weird!)?
One that listens to you instead of plugging your responses in a computer?
Maybe I am up a creek without a paddle and stuck with what I've got. I dunno. Maybe you can tell me if I am just being ridiculous? Does such a creature exist? I just want to feel normal. I just want to tell the difference between blind rage that is fueled by a "rational" argument, or the blind rage that is just because I am not right yet. ANY help is greatly appreciated!!!!