Big decision to make and my heart goes out to you Elana05.

After putting a 'time limit' on my ex recently for an answer I have to say that it turned out to be a wrong idea.. I felt I was doing it for my sanity (making an end date) but it turned out to just about kill me waiting for the time to be up and then realising that no time limit was rational.. feeling/thought/emotions/decisions can't be put onto a time line.

I do hope that you sort it out and get the best outcome for you.
Can you try seeing a therapist alone to work through the issues you are facing now and find a way to cope with how you are feeling?