So we probably talk/screamed for a good 4-5 hours last night. He slept in the 2nd bedroom and actually got fired from his job today because he didn't want to work 14 hrs a day without overtime so they told him they didn't need him. Then the painters he was working for went to go paint this business about 20 mins away. When he got home, the business he would have gone to paint for called him for an interview and its a much better job.

He went on this rant about how dumb he was and how he couldn't believe he let it get to this. He said that I deserve about 1000 times better than him and he cant believe some of the things he said to me. I opened up about some sexual harassment which i think kind of hammered it in how annoying the sexist jokes are.

I told him I was going to talk to our landlord about transferring my name to a different lease when i turn in rent next week. He knows that I'm 100% serious. I was in the process of transferring his name onto bills for the house we are in right now and he just kind of sat outside crying while I was doing that.

So today so far he has been really nice and actually happy. He has been calling to talk and saying I love you every time he hangs up the phone. Honestly, I would be okay with just starting over completely. I feel like we moved too fast and it caused a lot of tension. Plus the fact that his old roommate was being a jerk so he had to come stay with me and I wanted to live on my own. I feel like that really put a strain on our relationship. And I kind of want to just back things up a bit. Like we went from dating to an everyday routine really quickly which I imagine played into him taking me for a granted because we had to skip a lot of typical dating parts from him being forced out of his house.

I brought up him possibly moving elsewhere for a job or phd and just taking it from there and he seemed more okay with that idea. I guess I feel like I'm not ready to just completely give up because I know Im one of the people who just wants to help and save everyone. Which I know puts a lot of strain on me but I can't help it.

Nothing can happen right this minute because most of the places that I could afford have already booked up for student coming back to school this summer. But I am getting the info from my landlord about the right path to go so that I don't end up breaking my lease and owing a bunch of money or anything.

Bottom line I am not taking anymore of this crap. I know that I have let it slide in the past and if I would have just spoken up and stood strong in the beginning I wouldn't be where I am right now. For the time being, until something opens up, apt wise, that will be the test. Now we're just kind of roommates I guess. I told him everything that I would absolutely have to see for me to even consider being with him so he knows. If he chooses not to follow through then I have my resources to leave when I have enough money and a house actually opens up.