There is this guy I liked at school, I'm 15 and in all honesty not that ready for relationships but he was the only one out of all the guys I've liked in my life that I actually wanted to be with. He's 17. So I started to get to know him in class about a month ago but then he disappeared for 4 weeks. So I missed out on 4 weeks of talking to him and getting to know him better. Then he came back but left again because (we're in an alternative school) he had finished his courses and he didn't have anything to do until exam week. Today he came in for exams like the rest of us and left before I had even a chance to say hi.

I have him added on facebook but he rarely gets on, like once probably every 5 months. I've only spoken to him once on there, which was last night, and it made me ecstatic. But now it's summer, we're going to two different schools in the fall, and there is no way to talk to him without it being awkward. He wouldn't hang out with me, he's 2 years older and I'm not much for company. In a way I feel like it's his fault for skipping a whole month of school, but in a way I feel like it's mine for not trying hard enough. I feel like I should try and start messaging him but he rarely gets on the computer so it wouldn't be very effective. I guess I gotta just let it go, right?

P.S. What really made it worse was everyone at school said we should go out, said we would make the cutest couple and everyone was convinced he liked me and acted nicer and different (in the good way) around me. For a while I thought he liked me too but I think if he really did he would have come to school and would have said hi to me today. Talking to me on facebook outta no where while there were other kids who were on from our school to ask me about the exams seemed like progress but I'm pretty sure I was just reading too much into it.