oh girl, you have just described me...i feel such rage and he gets the brunt of it, i have such a issue with feeling im not being taken seriously-or being understood- and i ****ing flip....i have been so verbally abusdive to him that if it was me being treated that way id have walked out long ago, my husbanf is hard to argue with, hes great at being silen-which makes me crazy(he insists i like to argue, along with my mom too, she also agrees) and i get out of control...im ashamed to admit that i hit, smack, and bite and punch,scratsh him, i thind because i know i can get away with it-i dont treat anyoneelse this way-makes me sound like a *****-i hate i do this-but the anger and hurt and paranoia of thinking hes trying to fool me, or hes lying, or doesnt care...so you see i am insecure in relationships and have trust issues too ((sigh)) i dont know how he deals with his frustration, but its not noticable so i dont know and by the way i dont apoligize either... god, as i read this i seem horrible but its not very often it gets like this, i allow anger to build up till i go off(but never in front of daughter) its disruptive and troubling, was told therapy would help, but it hasnt really... so dont worry your difficult, i believe that us that deal with mental disorders have alot on our shoulders, the burden of just trying to appear sane takes its toll...but maybe you would benefit from therapy? just trying to sound encouraging okay ill stop rambling... take care dear