i do despise alcoholics, but i am in love with this one. go figure. at 57, i am also afraid of leaving my spouse and being lonely for the rest of my life. we are in such financially dire straights now, a new job would not help with the debt situation. i am lucky to have a job making 10/an hour, though i was laid off from one that paid close to 20. most jobs here, and they are very few and far between, pay minimum. and there has been a recent layoff of hundreds of people, most with degrees, so that makes it even more difficult.
i have turned to the internet to try to make some new friends, as there is nowhere here to go at night except bars, and i don't do that. most people who frequent chat rooms just want to have cyber sex, and i am just not into that at all, so it isn't working too well. the overnight crew is all male, and with the exception of the fwb, are red neck dolts. there is no full time work available on any other shift, so i'm kind of stuck.
my gp did prescribe some xanax and prozac, but i am leery re the prozac. how many years does my libido have left? i don't want to take something that will eliminate my desire before it happens naturally.