my husband suffers from this, as well as RA. we have been married for 20 years, he has been able to only work part time since then.
i feel so guilty about this, but i am tired of it. tired of his being ill, tired of him not being able to do the things i like, tired of this feeling that i am destined to be a caretaker.
i lost my feelings for him years ago. i love him as a friend, not a husband. and i feel so overwhelmingly guilty about these feelings.
how do you deal with a disabled partner? do you get sick of it? have you had affair just to be with someone who is healthy and fun? how do you deal with the guilt?
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