Well ladies, I do appreciate that there are those who can understand me. I feel so alien sometimes. I am really, really worn out today because of the thing last night, so I have little I am able to add right now, but you all sound so much like me. And if my husband did a 16th of what I do to him to me I would have kicked his *** out the first time. That's a thing I get upset about too, maybe he's just humoring me? Maybe I'm his charity case? Why would anyone stay with someone like me?

And I have been in therapy for nearly 6 years now and it has done zero to help with this, but I don't have one of those hunky dory great therapists who holds my hand and makes me feel good and all of that. He is very old school psychiatrist who actually practices therapy (though I am one of the few patients he actually uses psychoanalysis on, he does med management only on most of his other patients).