Dear Greylove...I know that feeling of 'life being in shambles' especially the first few months of the diagnosis...I can really relate and feel for you at the moment. Know that this current state that you have will also pass despite being a very difficult journey. I have been there too...just continue to hold on and seek that tunnel...your husband, sister and those who truly care for you will be there waiting at the end of the tunnel. In the meantime, they are holding a saving rope for you...just continue to hang on...you will rise little by little...it is really a process...Hugs from me to you...