(((((((((((((petunia))))))))))))))))

she was so kind to send me some links that explain exactly what i do and that it's harmless, if scary! thank you so much, petunia! it has a name and it won't hurt me!

SLEEP STARTS
Most people have experience the common motor sleep start - a sudden, often violent, jerk of the entire body that occurs upon falling asleep. Other forms of sleep starts also occur just as sleep begins such as;
visual sleep start - usually a sensation of blinding light coming from inside the eyes or head
auditory sleep start - a loud snapping noise that seems to come from inside the head
The different types of sleep starts can be frightening, but these occurences are harmless.

i can tell t exactly what it is now. how great is that! i feel so relieved just knowing what it is and that it's harmless, because it does cause a panicked feeling.

kd