I've been pretty self-absorbed and looking for ways to understand the depression monster a little bit better, instead of working on my studying (can't concentrate enough to be able to read text books right now) or cleaning the house or the other things I should be doing. I found <A target="_blank" HREF=http://www.depression-recovery-life.com/index.html>a depression recovery</A> site that looks pretty good. I can't stand to read some of it right now because it is just plain too positive, but I'll go back to it later. If it helps any of you maybe I haven't wasted a whole day afterall.

I'm looking for ways to break out of the depressed state. This time it just hit me so fast and there was no way I could avoid it. Does anyone have anything that works for them? All I can think of is just to try to keep going. Since I've been depressed so many times and for so long, the statistics are against it ever stopping - I just have to find the best ways possible to keep going anyway, either that or give up. Sometimes I'm amazed at what I do manage to accomplish even when I'm pretty badly depressed, and also how well I can act okay enough that people don't really notice. Sometimes that's a good skill to have. Wouldn't it be neat to make some significant accomplishments that people would recognize as valuable, to the point that people would wonder how someone plagued with depression could do so much?

Uh oh, that sounded like grandiosity - maybe I ought to to take a mania quiz and see if the SJW is kicking in a little too much. Other than that, it doesn't feel like it though.

<font color=green>"Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible" Carl Jung</font color=green>