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Originally Posted by onomonapetia
"it's OK to not be maybe the high achieving person we used to be "
Wow, WendyAussie. You don't know how much of a weight you just took off of my shoulders. I don't even know what to say. I think I might be crying a little. When I was much younger, I was such an overachiever. Made awesome grades (high school and college). I was skinny, vibrant, healthy, and I had such a bright future ahead of me. I never finished college. I know I am not ugly, but I need to lose at least 50 pounds to feel like myself again. I feel like I am wearing a fat suit that I can't take off. Besides all that, I haven't done anything in my life besides my daughter that I am proud of. I was talking to my therapist today and I told him that I want my daughter to be proud of me. I feel like I am such a disappointment to everyone, my husband especially. Sorry, didn't mean to take over the thread. I just wanted to say that I have never thought that before, that it's okay that I am who I am today. Thank you!
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I say wow to both of you. I needed to hear these words of wisdom because I too and facing much of the same dilemmas.
As to the original poster, definitely work with you p-doc to make sure that you have the right kind and dosage of meds. Sometimes this can be trial and error until the right "cocktail" is identified. Took a while for me but we found one that has kept me largely stable for 3 years and counting.
Take courage, you will get there too but you must persist even through these difficult times. You are not alone in your quest: you have a team of docs and people who are supporting you.
To cap it off I said a prayer that things would go well for you. Don't expect an instant answer, though. Sometimes these things have a way of being answered in a time release fashion.
I wish you well.