Thanks for all the kind words. I had a good day at work except for those extended times when I was alone. I would get down when the workload was down. When the workload picked up I felt a rush of joy, in my present job work always brings me up. Also, when my coworker showed up we had some nice chat time during the downtime when there wasn't any work to be done. The chat time lifted my spirits.

I had the day off today and got to visit with my family. (I'm separated from them and only get to see my wife and children once a month). Had a great time with them. Then I got home and discovered that Social Security wants to terminate my disability benefits.

This was really a bad ending to a great day. I appealed with Social Security a week ago about this situation already and was told that I was fine and now I get a letter that says that my first appeal was rejected. Well, I'm appealing again. I'm just not in a position to lose those benefits at this time.

Initially, upon hearing this news I became more depressed and dejected. I went to church tonight for a music program they were offering and this calmed me down. I'm not so depressed right now but I do have some strong feelings of anxiety over the process. Oh well, I'm going to try to relax as much as possible. I can't act on this until Monday morning.

I don't have anti-anxiety meds so I'm going to have to resort to meditation, breathing, exercise, and perhaps another post on this site to further bemoan this trial. I must remember, "this too shall pass."