Hi, would like to know if the problems in our relationship are mostly my fault and if so can someone give me some tips on how to be a positive instead of a negative in the relationship. I right my bf an I are fighting, I am 12 weeks pregnant and a few days ago just started taking respirdol. A couple of weeks before into taking respirdol I found out I was pregnant and my doc told me to stop taking it until now, prior to that I was taking celexa for about 6 months and that she has taken me off of due to my pregnancy. I missed a few appt with my doc and I really dont know what exactly is wrong with me as yet, she hasnt labeled me as yet. The problem is that my bf and I fight all the time granted he is a prick honestly and he is very hard to deal with, that he would agree with, but I find myself loosing a lot of patience, getting very angry for the first time in my life I punched someone last night, yes my boyfriend. I'm still in shock, I get in these rages lately more so than ever before. He tends to make references to me taking medication and has also told his fam which Im embarrased about, but he will say things like "remember I'm not the one thats crazy here", that would really %#@&#! me off. I'm sure u'll agree that thats not nice, but I want to be able to handle his comments better....the constant fighting is really stressing me out, Im not sleeping and it makes me think not very nice thoughts about him, basically everything that come out of his mouth pisses me off. While Im writing this he call and I have his granddaughter here, yesterday i asked him if he could take her home early, (due to everything that happend last night ) he calls and tell me that he will be busy for the next 4 hours its 11:30. I hung up on him, I'm tired of feeling like im the ***** and being called a crazy *****...I dont wanna feel this way anymore...I need to block him out because i cant handle it anymore. Since the kids woke up i've been in my room on the pc...cant face nothing and he tell me this...i just need to know how to cope without losing it.
Please help.1