Yes, so much of it. I'm having massive heaps of time with not having to be anywhere or do anything (like MASSIVE). While I keep somewhat busy with cleaning or little projects or errands, the rest of the time I find myself just going around and around with basically unproductive time fillers. Having NO idea what to do with myself. Like going 'round and 'round online between 3 sites. This is the only one that's worthwhile. The other 2 I don't know why I even bother. Could be... should be... looking more for a job (have a VERY few hours one currently). But anything of substance?? You put it perfectly... "makes me freeze". The only real difference is that I'm nearly oblivious to time. Don't see chunks to fill, so much as just droning along in... well, like a stupor. Which, back to the feelings in common, makes me depressed and anxious.

Have been wishing so hard lately for a good hypomania like the one last summer (about this time!!!) that went on for a month and a half. There were "moments" to be sure, but the energy? The (over)confidence? The getting stuff DONE all over the place? Yeah, that.

Feeling just totally overwhelmed. Time that I can't seem to utilize, anxiety, at the limit of rejection tolerance (when I have managed to rally even a little, have had so many roadblocks I so dread the thought of subjecting myself to it, even though I really really have to deal and do it, as my back comes ever closer to the wall.) Ugh. Time, being frozen, anxious and depressed. So hear you.